i cried to sleep yesterday nite.
he called at 12+. Finally get to hear him after the long wait. There were long pauses and silence on our conversation. He didn't tell me much abt what he had done, only "politely" answered what i probed him. I knew he dun feel like telling and so i stopped asking. Asked him if he's free tml nite and he said "NO." Asked him if i can meet him tml night, he reprimanded me for taking up too much of his time. He mentioned that he feels that he spent too much time on me. I'm hurt by what he said.
I've already tried to change myself yesterday. I msg him yesterday evening to ask if i could meet him, he said he had something on and is not free at that moment. I waited and waited. Clocks ticked, ticked and ticked.. I keep restraining myself from picking up the phone to call him. I told myself that he will get back to me when he's free. I suceeded. I overcome it and he finally gave me a call at 12+. I'm so delighted.
The call turned up to be a heavy blow. Supposed to be wonderful conversation that we share our daily happening but it turned up otherwise. I really don't understand. Shouldn't couples COMMUNICATE and knows how and what the other party is doing? He shifted his things into his hostel yesterday and isn't it something great that he can talked abt? He dun like to tell me what he has done or what is happening around him. How would i know them if he dun say? i knew he disliked me questioning and nagging at him and so i stopped all these. there's no point in me telling him all my things while he kept silence. I'm so sick and tired of it that i rather kept quiet.
I really don't know how our relationship would progress. All he needs is freedom. I'm giving it to him now and i hope he can feel "my absence" in his life.
I'm sad... very sad...
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